back from deep texas

i'm back from my weekend visiting my sister in texas. i flew into san antonio where she lives and we did spend friday night there, but at 6am we were on the road down towards laredo (near the mexican border). we went with two other families to debbie and bill's ranch where the boys could hunt. the girls went into town and shopped. i was able to get several very unique iron pieces for my house. they will be shipped to me.

i got to shoot a gun. wasn't as difficult as i thought. i didn't hit anything. well, a tin can finally after a bazillion tries. first we played with jace's bb-gun and them we moved on to a .22. it was heavy and i got tired.

dinner was some fabulous smoked brisket that willie made. the best thing about texas is tacos for breakfast and that we had twice.

nyc pictures

moving forward

to day is about moving forward and making process. taking control - a good thing. i'm back in the office today. have a bunch of work to coordinate and it's a bit overwhelming. i also need to juggle in my life with a few things that take place during work hours. So I am into making lists and getting through what I can. I have a big work list of all sorts of good things that are interesting and will keep me busy. It's hard because we are starting a new project and I also need to maintain and update an old application. I spoke with a really nice attorney referred by someone my mom knows and i meet with him tomorrow. Tonight I will make an asset list and a list of items to discuss with him. I also need to dig out the legal descriptions for the house and the timeshare. I think I lost my title for my car which is the one thing I am freaking out about. I need to go through everything. I might even need to dig through the garbage in case I threw it out. That would be BAD!

movies, movies, more movies

i'm on a movie marathon. lately i was wached a whole bunch. I watched three netflix movies, three at the movie theaters and a whole bunch on cable. they take my mind off of things. my favorite so far was the notebook. my least favorite was the interpretor. i just signed up for a special where i now get all movie channels for the next three months.

beauty . . .

I had to create a circle journal for twopeas this weekend. The theme is "What a Wonderful World" and it is about nature / animals. I spent a few hours this afternoon and was able to complete the entire album. All I need to do now is get it ready to be mailed out Monday morning. The page I created as my submission is "beauty . . . " and it has pictures from all over. Included are waterfalls and forests from our trip to the Smokies, beaches in Florida and even several taken in Illinois.

home again

today is the first day i can do whatever i want. i plan on participating in a cybercrop at http://homegrownscrapbooks.com/. however i haven't started yet. i went to the store to get groceries, balanced the checkbook, downloaded my pics from NYC and watched shows i had recorded from when i was gone.

the cybercrop looks good - hopefully i'll get a lot done. i also have to finish my circle journal this weekend. the topic for this one is "what a wonderful world." supposed to be travel / nature related.

goodbye new york

New York has been good to me. I sucked in the life and the strength from this amazing city. My hotel room overlooks the World Trade Center site. Every morning when I wake up I look out the windows and realize that the people in this city are strong and so am I. There are so many worse situations I can be in. I was going to go to the Metropolitan Art Museum today, but it's kind of rainy and I'm tired and hung over after my fun night out with Jim and Cari. So I'm going to go to a movie this afternoon and then have a nice dinner before I head to the airport.

I had a $35 breakfast this morning. It was just an omelette but room service here is crazy expensive. I think it's funny. It's okay since I'm not going to eat 3 meals today, that balances out breakfast and lunch.

Elizabethtown is the movie I'm going to see. It's probably a romantic comedy. I like Orlando Bloom and Kirstin Dunst so I think I'll like it. Hope I don't get upset if they end up together. But I've wanted to see it for a while and I can now do whatever I want. So that's what I'm going to do.

Can't wait to see my dog and get home tonight. Won't be home until about 11:30 pm so I have 11 hours left!

in-between days

This is the name of a song by the Cure. I can't remember what the subject of the song is right now, but it seems like how I feel today. In-between. I'm not too upset, but I'm not too happy. Just kind of blah. I like this blog thing though. I've been playing with it for hours. I'm meeting up with Jimmy tonight. We're going for an Italian dinner somewhere in Manhattan. It's kind of cool saying I'm going for dinner in Manhattan :)

Tomorrow I head back to Florida. It will be my first time at home after Shannon has left. He will be there Friday night to finish getting his stuff packed up and moved out. But I won't get home until about 11:30 and he will be gone by then. It will be just me, the dog and the bird from now on.

Hurricane Wilma is headed toward Florida and is scheduled to hit Saturday or Sunday. Mom wanted me to come to Chicago this weekend but I didn't think it would be a good idea with a hurricane coming. I also have lots to do. Need to relax. Need to accept being home alone. Need to catch up on scrapping. Need to just be.

A New Me

Well, here I am. At another new beginning in my life. Today is day 10 actually. Ten days ago my husband, my partner, my best friend spoke the words: "I don't think I love you." So here I am, 10 days later, on a busniess trip in NYC, broken hearted, and a new person. I just don't know anything about that new person yet and that is why I'm starting this blog. I hope to figure that out.

10 days ago I was one of the happiest women alive. I thought life was so perfect I was going to get cancer or something like that. I would have expected cancer - I did not expect this. To be told that he stopped "loving" me and "having those feelings" for me over two years ago. One year before we got married. Two years before we moved away from our friends and family to Florida.

It will be interesting to see where I go from here . . .